Monday, October 18, 2010

You are never gonna believe where I am while writing this blog. I am sitting in front of a Starbucks, stealing Internet well not tech stealing I did go in a buy coffee and a muffin. I just did not want to stay in there and have to listen to other peoples lives. I don't even want to listen to my life. That is why I am sitting in my car not wanting to go home. I know life does not suck as much as it could but dammit I want some freggin happiness. I got a email from my favorite niece telling me about how some B&B will give veterans a free night stay for veterans day. I looked into it, of course nothing near us. we would have to go to MI or IN which I am totally fine with, but the tuff thing is convincing the hubby. As my kids refer to him "THE BEAR" I will tell them to go get their dad and they will tell me that they do not want to "poke the bear" of course I say do it anyways. Back to why I am sitting in front of a Starbucks. I do not repeat do not want to go home. Home is stress, home is clutter, home is fighting kids, home is chaos. and home is not where I want to be. As I sit here in the quietness of my car I am so happy which in turn as made me depressed because I am not suppose to be happy sitting in my car. I am suppose to be happy sitting at home. I really feel like I am losing my ever lovin mind. Someone please tell me its okay to not like my family or my house. I guess I should eat my muffin and go home I have killed enough time the kids will start to worry.

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