I am starting something later today that both thrills me and scares me. I am starting school. I officially start school for Medical Assisting at 2:00 this afternoon. Its been about 6 years that I have wanted to go back to school in the medical field. I had always thought with the kids needing me I should wait, Now my waiting is done. Last month I looked into Sanford-Brown College. Eventualy I would like to be a xray tech, but for now I start medical assisting. School is 45 min away, four times a week. I often wondered how I could I be a good wife and mother if I went back to school. My life is so stressed I hope I don't go stark raving mad. My handsome man tells me everything will be just fine. I wish I could see that. The kids say they understand why I am doing this, but somehow that does not change the fact that I feel like I am abandoning them. I also keep telling myself that this is a great thing and I have waited long enough to do something that I really want to do. I have wanted to be in the medical field for a long time. I had used the excuse of the kids being too young, or the fact that we move every three years that kept me from starting school. Now that the kids are older and I am so frustrated with staying at home. That gave me the jump and the push I needed to start school. I never realized that the VA would pay for all of my schooling and pay me an allowance for going to school. I should have done this three years ago. The only person I worry about is my charming boy, he doesn't take change too well. I hope for all of our sakes this will be a smooth transition. A few people have told me how difficult this school will be, I love to learn new things so I hope I can go though with the course without losing my mind. I am so grateful that I have the support of the people I love to help me though this. I am anxious and scared but I know I can do this. Just think by the time I am 40 I will be a Medical Assistant . After I finish this course I can go on to Xray tech. Wish me luck. I will keep posting and writing about my new adventure.